Monday, January 4, 2010

Week 7, Day 3

It's been almost a week since I started taking the Dic. but it's not working. I'm still feeling sick everyday, fighting the urge to throw up every time I eat. Is this normal?

Tuesday, December 29, 2009

Week 6 & 4 Days

I finally started using the Diclectin my doctor prescribed for me. I'm hoping this will cut the number of bathroom visits I have to make throughout the day and let me go on having normal productive days. Fingers crossed.

I can't believe I'm cornering 7 weeks this week.
I'm so excited and anxious to see my OBGYN next Friday. I don't know why but I think I'll feel better once I see him for some reason. I also want to go and see the ultrasound - I want to see my baby and hear the heart beat. Until then, I'm always be walking on egg shells.

My brother told me yesterday that he bought me a maternity outfit. I've been looking at a few, mainly pants to wear once I start showing but the idea that someone got me one kind of excites me. It feels real. Until I start to show and grow, the morning sickness and glass shards for breasts is the only reminder I have that I have a life growing inside of me.

Tuesday, December 22, 2009

Week 5 & 4 Days

I just recieved my blood test results for my second HCG level reading - 11,678!

Normal readings for 5 weeks is LMP: 18 - 7,340 mIU/ml which means I'm above the normal level for 5 weeks but based on my original test which came out at 199, I'm consistant with doubling every 2 days give or take.

I go back in 2 weeks for another HCG level before seeing my OB GYN which will put me at 8 weeks. Hopefully by that time I can see the baby from the ultrasound and hear a heart beat which would definitely put my mind at ease a little more. So far so good and we're corning 6 weeks with no issues. Let's hope this continues.

This is around the time my body gave out on my the last time around so I'm more anxious then ever now. I just need to stay strong and focused for another 6 weeks and we're in the clear past first trimester.

I really hope we have twins, but at this point the chances of twins look slim.

Sunday, December 20, 2009

Week 5 & 2 Days

i am so sick

i woke up this morning feeling like death. my nausea has been off and on for the past couple of weeks but today is different. i can hardly sit still for more than 30 mins and when the nausea hits, my stomach, back, chest and head feels like it's going to explode. i've been warned that nausea hits around week 6 - but because i've already been experiencing symtoms i thought that would be the extend of it but i guess not. at least i haven't thrown up yet. i've been trying really hard not too - it's one of the worst feelings and i just feel so weak after i throw up.

man, the idea of 7 more weeks of this - or possibly even another 30+!
as much as i'm thankful for this wonderful gift of life, the nausea is going to kill me.

i wish i could take more gravol ginger chewables - 1 is just not enough.

Friday, December 18, 2009

Week 5

Week 5 has finally arrived.
I don't notice any major differences, still feeling the same, tired, nauseous off and on but my breasts seem more tender than ever. Just giving someone a hug is a painful gesture.

5 weeks in is still very early which makes me anxious, but I'm glad we're hitting each week slowly but surly with no real signs of danger. On Monday we go to see my family doctor and hopefully take another blood test to ensure my HCG levels are increasing. The last time around, the drop in my HCG levels was the dead give away that I was miscarrying. I miscarried at week 5 so this is the week that I'm being very cautious.

So until my next confirmation check, my orange seed baby, let's get through another 7more weeks!

Wednesday, December 16, 2009

Week 4 & 5 Days

I had my first ultrasound this afternoon and at 4wks and 5 days they were unable to see anything other than the gest. sac. No embryo yet. Apparently it's still too early so I'll be going on week 8 after the holiday season.

Ahhh, the anxiety!

Monday I'm going back to check my HCG levels, to ensure its on the uphill climb. Until then, more sickness and lots of sleep.

Tuesday, December 15, 2009

Week 4 & 4 Days

So this is my first journal entry.

Just to give you a recap - in November of 09 at my last appointment with my OBGYN, I was told that he could no longer do anything else for me. After my last miscarriage in the fall of 08 I experienced a year of being on fertility and hormone pills, monthly appointments, painful, invasive procedures, shots and then finally a laparoscopy performed after and being diagnosed with endometriosis and still with no luck, my doctor had exhausted all efforts and declared December 09 to be my last meeting with him. My heart literally dropped when he mentioned a fertility clinic and instantly thoughts of costs and the emotional, physical stress I would have to endure started to overtake me.

I walked out of the doctors office that day with my mother by my side, choking back tears thinking of what my husband and I would have to do next. I felt all hope in conceiving on our own fly out the window and my heart sank. For some reason, although I know all the issues that we were faced were all out of our control, I felt like less of a woman, as if I had somehow failed being a wife, a mother, a woman.

Now let's fast forward a month.
Even after my doctor's notice, I still stayed on my fertility pills for November and by the first week of December I started to feel weird. I started to get really nauseous and even before my period was due this month, I decided to take a pregnancy test and behold - it came out positive!!!



That was last week Monday.
I won't be able to see my OBGYN till January 8th, so my family doctor is keeping a close eye on me until then. Which means, for my first trimester, we are monitoring my HCG levels and tomorrow I go in for my first ultrasound to make sure the baby is in the right place.

Everyday my symptoms seem to get worse, but the odd day when I can't feel anything or if my symptoms are not as bad, I start getting scared again. The thought of loosing another baby after over a year of trying makes me numb. Now, how to get through the next couple months without stressing myself out and freaking out over every little thing I can't answer.